Friday, January 17, 2003 :::
Grant dropped off
Maybe if I continuously blog about this the internet gods will put in a good word....
::: posted at 11:20 AM
Thursday, January 16, 2003 :::
Check off another item on To Do list
Finished grant proposal (see previous blog). OK... Need to do grades for quarter and then I think I might actually be reasonable caught up again.
Robotics club - definate meeting tomorrow!!! Have work to accomplish and not too much time.
:)
::: posted at 4:56 PM
Wednesday, January 15, 2003 :::
Not going to be moving too quickly tomorrow
Why does the _best_ classes at the gym leave you sore the next day?? (yeah yeah I know..)
But if you think about it - its not fair. Its like a built in handicap. The more you workout, the stronger and lighter you become (if thats your goal) and the easier it gets to work out more. But when you first start, or after you take a break - it so totally sucks! Shouldnt it be the other way around and get progressively harder? Start easy and then slowly get to the point where you get that nice runner's high? (non substance induced...)
Anyway - Wrote one grant to help pay for the conference I am going to next month (no matter what). Working on a second to go here. Yes! thats in Greece. So I definately will not be going unless I get the grant.
On another note...
Why is it my fault that I dont spend enough time with the hubby? Yes I work a lot (even at home) but 'cmon this is a two way thing. Lets recap the week for all of you who dont have my life directly uplinked to your callendars. Monday - Fire department meeting. Tuesday - Truck Cleaning. Wednesday (today) - Meeting with a fire deparment in a whole nother town. I think he is home tomorrow - not too sure about friday. (anyway Friday I am on duty) I always said that the secret to our marrage is that we still just date on weekends.. gggggrrrrrrrr Had a long talk with him last night. This is part of the reason I didnt get married the first time. I LOVE what I do. (and like to think I am decent at it) That doesnt mean that I have any less affection for the person sharing my life, but it does mean that I am distracted a lot. (especially with the year that I have been having) I thought that he would understand - first almost-hubby didnt. I dont think he was as passionate about anything in the same way I was about teaching. Hubby loves the fire department the way I love teaching. I am a good supportive wife - never complain about the endless meetings/functions - just do what I can to help out when I have the time. ggggggrrrrrrr
...sorry for the stream of long blogs - but guess what - you read this of your own free will!
::: posted at 9:01 PM
Tuesday, January 14, 2003 :::
Responding to the blog discussion of religeon
Eunji and everyone at zachisbored seem to be stuck on the religeon question and I just wanted to add some of my own comments.
It is irrelavant why or how religeon was created, and how it has evolved. The importance lies not within the origins of the concept, but within the effects that it has on society and ourselves. The way people percieve faith and a supreme force or being is very personal to them. For we are just a minute part of a very large chaotic universe and it is extremely egotistical of us to think that we are the only planet in this universe (or others) that sustains sentient life - even beyond that it is even worse that we believe that we can confine something so far beyond us into such a narrow concept of God. I believe that if you do good things in your life, good things will come to you. The various religions or spiritual beliefs that abound on the planet exist primarily to explain the unexplainable. How can we fit something that denies explanation into one? Zen teachings say that we reach enlightenment when we are not thinking about enlightenment. To truly understand the universe it must come in a flash of inspiration because the universe is percieved very differently by every creature contained within it. The more we try to define the concept of a supreme being the more incorrect we become because it is undefinable. The contradictions that abound here are enourmous. Does that mean that I dont believe in organized religeon? no. I think that there is truth in making requests of people to act with morals and consideration to those around them. I also feel that the stories/parables/psalms/etc. that are used are a way of helping people reflect on their actions (confession) and understand that they are wrong and should not be done again (repentance). But it does not mean that the comparisons and analogies that we make are the only explanation for what occours around us.
The theory of the prime mover in the universe is one that bears further study if this interests you. Plato debated the question of whether there could be a supreme being with ultimate knowledge, but we still have control over our own lives. For if the supreme being does have all knowledge, then wouldnt he start the first motion in such a direction and at such a time as he saw fit to produce the best results? Just a thought.
::: posted at 1:30 PM
And it can all change in a moment
THEY ARE USING MY SYLLABUS!!!! 5 WERE SUBMITTED!!! TWO GET USED!!!! THEY ARE USING MY SYLLABUS!!!!
*DANCES AROUND* *GLARES AT PEOPLE LAST NIGHT WHO GOT DISTRACTED* *GLOMPS ANYONE WHO READS THIS* *DANCES SOME MORE* *THROWS SNOW AT WILL* *SPINS EUNJI AROUND* (no you cannot collapse from being dizzy!!) *YEAH!!!*
OMG! I am so excited about this - In case you couldnt tell! I am going to be walking around on cloud nine for a while (yes grym you are going to have to wait a while before I collapse!!) So huge. There are no words!
::: posted at 6:56 AM
Monday, January 13, 2003 :::
Unwell
All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me
-Matchbox 20
::: posted at 9:05 PM
Thoughts and Things
I saw a beautiful mind this weekend. What a thought provoking movie. It really makes you question a lot of the things that you hold to be truth. I really wonder sometimes about my own mental well being. You really can believe that you are fine and not be. Sometimes I think that I get into a manic phase a little, but hopefully it is just a bit of hypochondria. (although there is a history in my family) All math/cs people are a little eccentric - right?
anyway - throughout most of the movie, the significant other really didnt get a lot of it. .....
At least it appears that my sleep cycle has adjusted and I am back to getting a full nights sleep again..
::: posted at 1:02 PM
